Life can SUCK, and does at times !!! I think everyone has their time where nothing seems to be working out. My wife miscarried her first pregnancy at 4 months, a year later she gave birth to my son, then he past away at 2 1/2 months old, from s.i.d.s. I swore I would never try to have another kid. Well 3 years later my wife got pregnant again, for the first 3 months I was scared of her losing it, the next 3 months I figured whatever happens, happens, the last 3 months I found myself getting exited, and then one day she didn't come home.. So freaked out, I started calling hospitals, found out she was in one, the next city over. She had the baby, and IT WASN'T MINE !!! So now I'm 34 years old living back with Mom, Dad.
The only reason I wrote this was to let you know that I KNOW where you're coming from, and if you EVER need to talk to someone HIT ME UP !!!
I will keep you, your son, and wife in my prayers. just remember " THROUGH HIM, I CAN" !!!!