ditchdr
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Hey folks, dont know if ya missed me or not. But i have been away for a little while. Dont know who remembers but for the last 15 years I have been fighting a anxiety problem that gets pretty intense at times.
I guess getting the new house set off a traumatic switch in my brain and caused me to go into complete shut down. With in 3 days of moving in I became a complete shut in. As in scared to leave the safety of my home. Hard to explain but I guess you could say I was scared I would have a panic attack while being alone and not have anyone around to help if needed. For those who have never had a true panic attack I will try to explain it. Imagine your heart starts to race, you cant take a deep breath, for break out into a cold sweat, for arms and legs feel like jello, you mind starts to race, and you have a sudden and over powering sense of doom. Scary is a understatement for when it happens. You just know your gonna die right then and there.
But after researching it, and doing a little soul searching I have found not only how to live with them, but how to over come them. Seems your simply afraid of having them. So in reality its a fear or fear. I had to train my body to not be afraid of the symptoms of the panic attacks. I had to learn to welcome them, knowing each one I went through made me stronger. I find my self trying to have them. What i was once scared of, I welcome and try to encourage them. What has happened is I dont have them anymore. I have lost my "fear" of them. I still feel the symptoms of anxiety now and then, but i know they are just that, false symptoms. If anyone on this board is suffering from them, PLEASE dont let it ruin your life. There is a cure. It is simple, might not be easy, but it is simple. If you need to talk to someone about them I am right here. I found its easier to talk to someone who has gone through it then someone who has no idea what its like.
This is the second time i have been side lined by this. First time I was a house bound of over a year, this time only a month or so. I refuse to let it run or ruin my life. It has taken a lot from me as is. It has damaged my relationship with Jess, and well as driven a wedge between her mother and I that can not be repaired (oh darn).
But on a good note. I am over it, life is looking good I am stronger for going through it. And I am looking froward to getting back on a bike here in Feb when I take delivery of my new 2011 Harley V-Rod Muscle!!! Oh and then shortly after my new Busa lol..
Well now that i have spilled my guts to many people i dont even know on a first name basis I feel good lol..
I guess getting the new house set off a traumatic switch in my brain and caused me to go into complete shut down. With in 3 days of moving in I became a complete shut in. As in scared to leave the safety of my home. Hard to explain but I guess you could say I was scared I would have a panic attack while being alone and not have anyone around to help if needed. For those who have never had a true panic attack I will try to explain it. Imagine your heart starts to race, you cant take a deep breath, for break out into a cold sweat, for arms and legs feel like jello, you mind starts to race, and you have a sudden and over powering sense of doom. Scary is a understatement for when it happens. You just know your gonna die right then and there.
But after researching it, and doing a little soul searching I have found not only how to live with them, but how to over come them. Seems your simply afraid of having them. So in reality its a fear or fear. I had to train my body to not be afraid of the symptoms of the panic attacks. I had to learn to welcome them, knowing each one I went through made me stronger. I find my self trying to have them. What i was once scared of, I welcome and try to encourage them. What has happened is I dont have them anymore. I have lost my "fear" of them. I still feel the symptoms of anxiety now and then, but i know they are just that, false symptoms. If anyone on this board is suffering from them, PLEASE dont let it ruin your life. There is a cure. It is simple, might not be easy, but it is simple. If you need to talk to someone about them I am right here. I found its easier to talk to someone who has gone through it then someone who has no idea what its like.
This is the second time i have been side lined by this. First time I was a house bound of over a year, this time only a month or so. I refuse to let it run or ruin my life. It has taken a lot from me as is. It has damaged my relationship with Jess, and well as driven a wedge between her mother and I that can not be repaired (oh darn).
But on a good note. I am over it, life is looking good I am stronger for going through it. And I am looking froward to getting back on a bike here in Feb when I take delivery of my new 2011 Harley V-Rod Muscle!!! Oh and then shortly after my new Busa lol..
Well now that i have spilled my guts to many people i dont even know on a first name basis I feel good lol..