Can't handle this anymore. Its no fun. I know...why dont I just skulk away instead of posting about. Well,I have unfinished business here. Guys like ......will be along shortly to stain me and add their 2 cents about how I have quit before.
I would appreciate it if all those who were the winners on my auctions for Pipefighters baby, and BV (my heart feels for that guy) could hurry those funds along ASAP. That way I can clean up and be done.
I will forward the funds that belong to Nathan(Pipefighter) tomorrow.
I will forward the funds that belong to James(BV) tomorrow as well,to a trustworthy person here on the board.
All funds that come in later will also get forwarded.
I will give a trusted member control over my Paypal account(provide them the password) then they can see that any funds that come in late will be properly dealt with. After a month or so,I will close the account.That way nobody can question my integrity and honour.
I'm tired and beat down. My brain re-hab is not going as well as I hoped. I have a hard time controlling my anger.I will probably never ride again. I have injuries that are permanant.I was told last week the damage to my vision is not from eye muscle damage as was hoped,there is damage in the pathway in the brain. Actual brain damage.I have other set backs aswell...but won't bore you.
I attempted to do my best,for what I often referred to as "My Members" but in some folks eyes,that just isn't good enough.Petty bickering over things like too many stickies in Random has finally taken its toll.
I felt I did a good job in helping my friend Doug/The Captain with getting the board out off the hole it was in left by the former Admin. Some folks told me they feel I may have single handly saved the board. I appreciate that.
I have run many fund raisers to help the board and its members,and for that I feel proud.
Many have urged me not to quit,saying things like nobody can do it better,nobody has helped or cared as much as I have,and that the place just wont be the same without me.To those folks,I say,THANK YOU.
There has always been disgruntled folks who saw my ways as harsh. Michelle (VaBusa) has recently voiced her concerns of my choice to ban members here and there. My "style" can be seen as harsh. I used the banning as a little wake up call. The Captain himself used to ban me weekly,even as an' Admin and Moderator. I found it helpfull. I've pulled members aside and offered them friendly advice,and they went on to become great members. BentValve for instance. He posted some nasty stuff here and there. I whispered in his ear one day,and overnight he became a valued member. So valued that I spent a great deal of my time attempting to help him.I feel good knowing that I helped.
I guess in the end the Trolls and Potstirres win. I give up.I have never asked for help,never asked for thanks. All I ever wanted was to help. I wish I could have just been left alone to run my auctions and fund raisers without the interjection from some board members fukkin crying about to many stickies in Random. I will never understand that.
No saint here either. Said alot of shiddy things in the past.Don't want forgiveness or understanding. The board has evolved thou...and with it, I evolved. I became less of an azzhole. Well...a little bit less. Guess I was hoping that the folks who disliked me in the past could just let go and get over it.
In the end I hope someone steps up and does a better job than me. There's apparantly lots of RSD HATERS out there.Perhaps one of them will step forward and provide the kind of help and support that I have tried to provide.
I've answered 240+ PM's in the last 7 days. Many emails too.I felt members deserved good service even thou this is not a "pay site". Its just the way I do things. I hope you get the same kind of help from whoever takes over. I really feel that 99% of the folks on here are entitled to great service.
Someone will be along shortly to say shiddy things like this is not the Matrix,its only a website etc. But they are also the first to freak when the board is down for a day.
Met alot of cool people on here,20 + of them in person,good folks.
Best site on the planet in my opinion.
Don't be too harsh on the ones who will come in this post and stain. They are not worth your energy. I'm sure lots of the Rubb haters will be along shortly to say good riddance.
Ignore them if you can. I guess thats my problem,my busted brain has a hard time over looking the crummy posts.
I wish all the members the best of luck,hope you ride safe,and long live Hayabusa.Org
RSD.
