Makes me think of my "riding buddy" Joel, my best friend. I was right behind him a few weeks ago when he left the road avoiding a truck doing his best to use the entire road. I know it scared him, terrified me. I have thought a few times about giving it up, or just stepping back to just track riding. I know one thing to be true, if I didn't have all those miles with Joel, we wouldn't have the same friendship.
Very sorry for your loss. Prayers go out to the family, but in this time of loss try and remember what you do have that you never would have if you didn't ride.