I got the worst kind of phone call last night. One of my best friends, for close to the entire 40 years of my life decided he could not go on any longer. Alan was a loner his entire life, one of the most brilliant minds I have ever known, and one of the lonliest people I have ever met.
His life has been rough, when he was just a teenager his destiny was set for him, his brother decided he no longer wanted to be alive. Alan survived close to 30 years after that horrible day, then watched his parents grow old and leave him. Alan lost his job programming for the Alberta Government last year, and was unable to find work after.
Alan was very close to my Mom and Sister as well, and when they died last year he was in pain as I was.
Alan was found alone in his home, a month after he died. He lived 200 miles from me.
This is the warning.
I got an email a while ago about the dangers of inhaling aerosol used to clean keyboards. Some people use it as whippets, the nitrous used to propel canned whip cream as a stimulant. The difference is, canned air contains different chemicals that kill you.
I can only imagine that Alan read the same email, and thought that was the easiest way to end his internal suffering. I hoped that an autopsy would prove otherwise, but it was confirmed that was how he died.
I am now 40, Alan was 45, far too young for such a fate. I miss my friend.
Please say a prayer for my friend, maybe even for me if you have a spare.
May god bless us all.
His life has been rough, when he was just a teenager his destiny was set for him, his brother decided he no longer wanted to be alive. Alan survived close to 30 years after that horrible day, then watched his parents grow old and leave him. Alan lost his job programming for the Alberta Government last year, and was unable to find work after.
Alan was very close to my Mom and Sister as well, and when they died last year he was in pain as I was.
Alan was found alone in his home, a month after he died. He lived 200 miles from me.
This is the warning.
I got an email a while ago about the dangers of inhaling aerosol used to clean keyboards. Some people use it as whippets, the nitrous used to propel canned whip cream as a stimulant. The difference is, canned air contains different chemicals that kill you.
I can only imagine that Alan read the same email, and thought that was the easiest way to end his internal suffering. I hoped that an autopsy would prove otherwise, but it was confirmed that was how he died.
I am now 40, Alan was 45, far too young for such a fate. I miss my friend.
Please say a prayer for my friend, maybe even for me if you have a spare.
May god bless us all.
