NCBusa2001
Registered
Listen the reason I'm posting this is because I consider you all "extended family". I've been on this board for a pretty good while. I've had some bad things happen in my life and the board was helpful to say the least. I couldn't have thought about worse than death of your remaining parent, until now.
I'm going through a REALLY rough time. The sad thing is, I can't even tell you all what is going on.
I feel a bit isolated, well more than a bit. I have only informed 4 people, my beloved wife Kim, my awesome boss, my bestfriend, and my Lawyer. I can't even tell my coworkers, that have been "family" for over a decade.
I can't sleep, no appetite, crying spells, can't function at work, and have this sense of "impending doom". Bad self destructive thoughts just keep creeping in which is worrysome. Especially in my line of work!
A lot of you know me personally. I consider myself to be one of the "good guys". I try to help ANYONE that is in distress.
That "gestalt" has bitten me on the ass. Short cryptic version. Tried to help "guide" someone to a more positive path. Alltruistic intentions. That someone was then "guided" by another party to do a malicious act toward me. Now it's GUILTY until proven innocent. All for trying to HELP someone.
That malicious act has sent hurricane force winds toward my house of cards. That house of cards has taken me A LONG TIME TO BUILD. I'm performing totally with out a "NET". As far as family I have, hmmm, well three young children, an elderly aunt in West Virginia, a wife (for now), and ...the board.
I don't even know what I would do,....if I stopped doing what I'm doing now. You have a degree in say,...english or art history...you can do pretty much anything. I've devoted almost decade in school to get on my chosen path. If that path ends....hmmm, bad juju. I just don't know.
I'm even in tears typing this. I might be done. Well find out Wednesday.
Pray for me please. Pray for the TRUTH.
Chris
I'm going through a REALLY rough time. The sad thing is, I can't even tell you all what is going on.
I feel a bit isolated, well more than a bit. I have only informed 4 people, my beloved wife Kim, my awesome boss, my bestfriend, and my Lawyer. I can't even tell my coworkers, that have been "family" for over a decade.
I can't sleep, no appetite, crying spells, can't function at work, and have this sense of "impending doom". Bad self destructive thoughts just keep creeping in which is worrysome. Especially in my line of work!
A lot of you know me personally. I consider myself to be one of the "good guys". I try to help ANYONE that is in distress.
That "gestalt" has bitten me on the ass. Short cryptic version. Tried to help "guide" someone to a more positive path. Alltruistic intentions. That someone was then "guided" by another party to do a malicious act toward me. Now it's GUILTY until proven innocent. All for trying to HELP someone.
That malicious act has sent hurricane force winds toward my house of cards. That house of cards has taken me A LONG TIME TO BUILD. I'm performing totally with out a "NET". As far as family I have, hmmm, well three young children, an elderly aunt in West Virginia, a wife (for now), and ...the board.
I don't even know what I would do,....if I stopped doing what I'm doing now. You have a degree in say,...english or art history...you can do pretty much anything. I've devoted almost decade in school to get on my chosen path. If that path ends....hmmm, bad juju. I just don't know.
I'm even in tears typing this. I might be done. Well find out Wednesday.
Pray for me please. Pray for the TRUTH.
Chris