I hear ya on the trust issue here....I have a CCW permit here in AZ, but haven't been packing since I came home from Iraq (don't trust myself yet). BUT, the biggest fear I have is having to go to court and be tried for using my weapon in self defense. But, like was mentioned above, better to be tried by 12 then carried by 6...
Wife and I both got out of the military back in '92, we moved into some apartments in a not so good part of town. One night we are sitting watching some TV when there are gunshots outside the apartment.... amazing how fast each of us at the 9mm in hand and taking positions in the apartment.... kinda scary to go on instinct and training at a moments notice in civilian world...
Over it now, but there was a time....