get ta pick up my 90 daze Clean & Sober Keytag at NA meeting 2nite..pretty anazed i was able to stay clean for 90 miracles in a row..for the 2nd time in my chaotic drama filled life...and real happy about it...not feelin so bad about myself anymore...startin ta see where with a little work i can become a good person again...maybe even graduate to happy...but i know better than to entertain any "expectations"
Toughest thing these days?...is accepting that "maybe" i dont belong trying so desperately to hang onto the family i broke my azz trying to provide for and control for the past 20+ years...times have changed....they have changed and I have changed for both the worst and now for the better..and i'm not sure if the family thing...
a. Just doesnt feel right anymore...or?...
b. If it's just that it doesnt feel "The Same"
or both.
Lettin go and trustin God on that one.
But one things certain just for today..and that one thing is...
Happy as a pig in shid bout stickin out the 90 in 90..never would've dreamed it possible 3 months ago...as i was a pretty sad case.
Thanks for helping getting me there and L8R, Bill.
Toughest thing these days?...is accepting that "maybe" i dont belong trying so desperately to hang onto the family i broke my azz trying to provide for and control for the past 20+ years...times have changed....they have changed and I have changed for both the worst and now for the better..and i'm not sure if the family thing...
a. Just doesnt feel right anymore...or?...
b. If it's just that it doesnt feel "The Same"
or both.
Lettin go and trustin God on that one.
But one things certain just for today..and that one thing is...
Happy as a pig in shid bout stickin out the 90 in 90..never would've dreamed it possible 3 months ago...as i was a pretty sad case.
Thanks for helping getting me there and L8R, Bill.