I have to admit I do not spend a lot of time here anymore, I have been over on Corvette forum for the last couple months.
I do not have any friends on there yet, and I miss you guys.
It is 2:00 AM here. I am sitting here watching shitty movies, and do not want to close my eyes. When everyone wakes up I will be 40. This was a crazy year. This is the first birthday I will have without my Dad, Mom, and my Sister. I lost Dad 13 years ago, Mom and Marlene this year to Cancer.
I went to the cemetary today, and for the first time since their passing, I heard my Mom's voice today. I heard her telling me happy birthday. I remember having a real tough time when Dad died, until late one night months after he left us, in my living room. I saw his face, and he was peaceful. It never hurt as bad after that. I do not know how to explain it, maybe I never will be able to.
I am hoping that things will get easier for me now, hearing Mom's voice today was something I have waited for, for a long time. Those of you that have lost loved ones may know what I am talking about, you may not. I think it is a 'peace' that is reached, through time.
I spent most of the summer as I always do, on the road. This was likely the best summer I have ever had, as 6 of 8 weeks I had either 1 or all of my family with me. We went on holidays, they travelled with me, or my son came along with me. When I worked, they shopped, waited in the truck, or played in the swimming pool at the hotel. I spent so much time with my amazing family this summer I am dreading Tuesday, it will come to an end until Christmas.
I may have just had an epiphony. As I was sitting here talking to you guys, thinking of my late family, I had a huge lump in my throat, and tears were again running. I had hoped I would be over that. As I started remembering my time with my lovely Wife and wonderful kids this summer, my heart grew warm, and I could feel myself smiling.
Memories are all I have any more, and I guess the best way to carry on, is to create new memories with my family. Maybe this year I can be a little easier on the kids when they mess up, maybe I can pay a little more attention to my loving wife, and maybe I can spend some more time with her family. Her Mom is still fighting cancer, and is in much better shape after 3 months of Chemtherapy.
I have really enjoyed the time I have spent on the org. I have met some wonderful people, some of whom have made a great difference in my life, through kind actions and words. When I needed help, there was always someone there. When I could help, I tried.
If there is anything I can do to help anyone, please let me know. I will do anything I can, for my friends.
GBYA.
I do not have any friends on there yet, and I miss you guys.
It is 2:00 AM here. I am sitting here watching shitty movies, and do not want to close my eyes. When everyone wakes up I will be 40. This was a crazy year. This is the first birthday I will have without my Dad, Mom, and my Sister. I lost Dad 13 years ago, Mom and Marlene this year to Cancer.
I went to the cemetary today, and for the first time since their passing, I heard my Mom's voice today. I heard her telling me happy birthday. I remember having a real tough time when Dad died, until late one night months after he left us, in my living room. I saw his face, and he was peaceful. It never hurt as bad after that. I do not know how to explain it, maybe I never will be able to.
I am hoping that things will get easier for me now, hearing Mom's voice today was something I have waited for, for a long time. Those of you that have lost loved ones may know what I am talking about, you may not. I think it is a 'peace' that is reached, through time.
I spent most of the summer as I always do, on the road. This was likely the best summer I have ever had, as 6 of 8 weeks I had either 1 or all of my family with me. We went on holidays, they travelled with me, or my son came along with me. When I worked, they shopped, waited in the truck, or played in the swimming pool at the hotel. I spent so much time with my amazing family this summer I am dreading Tuesday, it will come to an end until Christmas.
I may have just had an epiphony. As I was sitting here talking to you guys, thinking of my late family, I had a huge lump in my throat, and tears were again running. I had hoped I would be over that. As I started remembering my time with my lovely Wife and wonderful kids this summer, my heart grew warm, and I could feel myself smiling.
Memories are all I have any more, and I guess the best way to carry on, is to create new memories with my family. Maybe this year I can be a little easier on the kids when they mess up, maybe I can pay a little more attention to my loving wife, and maybe I can spend some more time with her family. Her Mom is still fighting cancer, and is in much better shape after 3 months of Chemtherapy.
I have really enjoyed the time I have spent on the org. I have met some wonderful people, some of whom have made a great difference in my life, through kind actions and words. When I needed help, there was always someone there. When I could help, I tried.
If there is anything I can do to help anyone, please let me know. I will do anything I can, for my friends.
GBYA.
